Thursday 25 September 2025
Went to an exhibition, don’t recall the name. Reading things I don’t understand.
Sunday 5th October 2025
Reflection on the first two weeks of life at Goldsmiths:
I feel very hazy today. I’ve actually felt hazy for a long time even though I don’t always remember it like that; nothings ever made much sense, perhaps its not something to fight.
I remember writing in my journal many years ago in 2020 that I imagined myself in a box where I could see out but could not, no matter how hard I tried, to smash the glass and understand the outside world.
I do still feel like that individual, a fish in the ocean, but I’m not so lonely anymore. The spaces I inhabit, while they may be just a room in a student accommodation or just a studio with a table and a wall, are not artificial like last year. Not a business model, not an advertisement. They are places that I am happy to inhabit alone without feeling so trapped. I see leaves everyday.
Everyone’s ideas have started to become exciting rather than overwhelming and threatening. I continue to learn that collaboration is a miraculous thing.
William Kentridge: ‘Relying on things that emerge from the work itself rather than from clarity of thinking.’
My mind is permeated by words and images which I realise that I need to act on before they disperse and crumble. When you’re hesitant on an idea, it tends to break down.
The image of a sphere has overtaken the image of a cube.
Translucent, spherical objects like sea glass. Concave objects.
Teal which pulsates from the words space and time and magenta, I’m not sure where this came from.
Aquariums, swimming pools, travelators, escalators, general stairs, tightropes
listing, archiving, organising
film slides
fiction, speculative fiction
Donna Harraway, Derek Jarman, Holly Hendry
play
art performance film
the colour of pomegranates
ideas from space and time
Wednesday 8th October 2025
I seem to be balancing a ship between waves
Sunday 26th October 2025
I’ve not been doing a huge amount of thinking but I have been doing quite a lot of doing which is definitely a good way of making work. However self reflection is still important to I’m going to attempt to summarise my current activities and find out where it might go.
Through an attempt to be playful with my work I’ve come back to drawing people. Last year I began to be very prejudice against work that contained any sort of figuration because I thought I wouldn’t be taken seriously however I’ve realised that to be taken seriously isn’t at all interesting.
I’ve been thinking about things such as the stupidity of instructions and drawing scenes from manual handing videos.
I made lists of actions and objects which I turned into a poem about someone walking a tightrope in a swimming pool and then I turned it into real life.
Lots of the things I’m doing whether drawing writing performance and sculptury things are involving actions or acts of labour and things with interesting materials like balloons, shards of glass or rubber gloves. Theres a juxtaposition between acts of play and excruciatingly boring and repetitive labour activities or maybe even painful activities.
I’m still enjoying lists, they make everything make sense.
Carrying on from last year I’m still thinking about space and how art objects live in relation to everything else, this is great because I’m also learning about this sort of thing in my Space and Time module. I’m still more interested in the gallery space than any piece of work within it, Goldsmiths CCA is a wonderful space.
I’m also still thinking about production and production lines which feel like huge scary monsters.
Moving forwards my new interests seem to be language and translation (but in more of a conceptual sense- how can I translate one medium or language into another and what is lost along the way), in response to this repetition and iteration (blowing up balloons animation) and alongside both of these, thoughts about narrative and the antinarrative that Derek Jarman uses.
Everything is very material its all stone and bubblegum and water.
I’m still obsessed with water, how its seen as such a normal thing to be encased in a clear substance that you cannot breath in that you cannot walk in so you must invent a new way of moving.
I think that more research would help a lot to keep ideas fresh and informed because I feel that I am mostly acting on intuition and what I already know. Visiting at least 2 exhibitions a week will also help by giving me sources of inspiration and something to react to. I think that I should write brief exhibition reviews with my thoughts on them to learn how to think critically and figure out what I like.
Creative writing and poetry might be a great from of inspiration and one I should look into further.
Story boarding
Something to think about:
Embody rather than depict
Sunday 2nd November
Stagnant
Too much time thinking about something which I’m doing rather than doing it
Labour, repetition helps the mind
Learning manual techniques